DEALING WITH THE WEAR AND TEAR

  After all these years of shameless public appearances(school & college: functions) and loud speeches(in the assembly  )  which many a times not even knowing what I meant.. And those  careful write ups wishing a huge reader base, to the extend that sometimes I had even resort to  blackmailing my buddies  to make them read that ;) , All of a sudden,now i feel soooo shy..to the extend that I am afraid to luk into the eyes of  strangers ,to talk what I mean . Have started to experience the " something  stuck up in the throat feeling ", deleted several articles that I wrote earlier, restricted scribbling just to my personal diary,and the difficulty with which I decided to blog once again..oooff!!Its too much..

   And this forgetfullness  lyk the 70 year old!very pity:'( living oblivious of the world round.. Its been quiet sometime since I even read the news papers!!Loads of pent up academic works and so  on....feeling less enthusiastic ,at the same tym,more conscious about thyself!!..having realized that this cud pull me down from any ladder that I climb(even when the ladder is not slippery ).

                                                                  I have come to my own rescue:)Tan ta dang!!!

Okay! emergency rescue actions in focus:

                 

   --jumpstarted with the blog writing thing,

let me admit it my friends--having a hobby feels gud:),and the feeling is all that matters(never mind if we suck at it or are gud at it).Thanks to my childhood innocence..I remember my english sir at school telling my mom that i have a way with words ,and I believed it:)thank god,that belief still gives me the courage to scribble for you to read,despite a  few 'below standard' comments from my 'well wishers'  !!

   --planning to byheart something everyday.This is going to be the killer drug for my poor memory!!(high hopes.I know)..but nothing wrong in trying right.. may be memorising verses from The Quran(Thereby trying to learn the arabic language as well.)saying all these here so that I will stick on to it..havent you heard ,the best results are obtained when u declare ur  goal in the public..We are always worried about  not meeting 'their'  xpectations..arent we?

   --gonna prepare well for the seminars..practise it to the extend that I am not gonna have to think it over there..but may be,rather  pretend that I am doing it casually..very casually;).we never know, these pretends might one day actually make me less nervous :)

  --I don know wat to do,with the social pobia part-'the difficulty to luk at strangers eye' thing..may be shud relax my strategy on not joining social networking sites..

   --gonna do my pent up non regular works at my own rhythm(website designing and android app development)..competing just with myself..and the pending up academics part- I am sure that I will catch up some how coz xams will begin by October :|  lesser the tym, faster we learn :D

After reading all these,you might have had the feeling that something has seriously affected her..but let me be frank.absolutely nothing!that is why I am feeling ridiculous about  this..some fears can never be answered ..I know..but this seems very awkward..whatever!!

hope to give you good review about my progress- with evidences;)

"Miles And miles to go before I sleep".wanna do hell number of things.. Like I wanna develop app, website, clear NET, GATE, prepare for DATA STRUCTURES(yep! gonna teach that for S3), learn driving, knitting, better cooking (GASP!!) and lot many other things..Hopefully