And that hopefully will make all the sense!!

So in the mean while.. This confused bundle of 20 something is muddling with the world religions!!.

All these years I have undoubtedly believed in the existence of one single almighty GOD.But these days, when I try to question few of its written precepts I find it unanswerable. May be its beyond what I perceive..

Nevertheless religion has become a habitual part of my life. Be it the 5 times prayer or my Hijab. Despite my reasoning side protesting with logical argument, there is another segment in my head which vehemently draws me into the direction of  unquestioning belief. 

But one thing is certain. This faith comforts me in times of fear and grief. Its where I hide when I feel like running away from everything.. Don't know if it’s the magical hands working behind or is it just the trust I indirectly put in myself by holding on to this faith.. but Thanks to my family for instilling this belief in me..It is a permanent solace when compared with the temporariness of people..

Religion has given me some social security and feeling of oneness, no matter where I am. And I no longer hold any issues with respect to modest dressing and head cover.. But putting aside the rituals, ain't all the religions of the world singing the same songs of love, peace and joy?

But sometimes I wonder who invented these laws of gender inequality and biased freedom ..The GOD, according to me is definitely most justful..and therefore will definitely not promote feminism or sexism. So demanding subservience because of being a girl is surely not  in GODs agenda. And so is the vice versa. To all those who have promises to keep, persistence is the key. Keep working and do all that you can to reach your dream.. Never succumb to anybody who pulls you down in the name of religion and gender. A REAL COMPANION HELPS YOU GROW.. 

Therefore enlighten my gals, He has created you for reasons that matter. plus with some special blessings of  keeping together a tightly knit family. The right to being treated with respect  is mutual to both the genders.

Truth or false, it feels good to believe that there is a super force who considers all tom, dick and harry to be equal.. No matter if we are black, white, red or brown, rich or poor, semitic or anti semitic, intelligent or stupid we are gonna be loved thoroughly by the supreme Power..And to believe that He is busy drawing the masterpiece written for each one of us, which by the end will merge different pieces of the jigsaw puzzle into one beautiful picture..
And that hopefully will make all the sense!!

On the teaching spree!!




mmm long time .. anyways am back:) its been 8 months into my new job:) feeling blessed.. Thank you dad:) If it was not for you, I don't know if I would have ever  done my masters or  got into a noble profession like this.

By the way, my new job entitles me to teach 'CS engineers'.  In other words I have started learning some teeny tiny 'engineering'.  My entire family is flabbergasted at the very thought of me educating,
well! I myself wonder all the more:)

 Its the best job one can have considering the holidays, the remuneration, the free time, and my friendly room mate.. lovin it (not the Mc donalds tagline)..

So  much to my chagrin., Its groom hunting phase for my family.. To add to my woes, I keep counting about the number of things, I will have to give up after the so called 'big day'.. Like this liberty to wake up in the middle of night and do what u please- may be silly blogging,  reading story books, or preparing for the next days class or washing my pent up clothes or To sit like an idiot before the TV and computer . To cook whatever I like and to sleep how much ever time I want.. To dress like a 'crack pot'.. Above all to live at somebody else's home! OMG Marriage seriously seems creepy!!


 On the other hand, there are also times when I  feel so awkward, coz all my friends are getting married.. yep I agree, there is also the need for some soul company- which I doubt if it ever will be met, desire to be a mommy and the like..

But then again I want to adopt a baby girl,. Achieve something worth mentioning in my life..not that marriage is a barrier to all these.. but am afraid, what if it turns out to be the scary kind..

hmm my muddle head of confusions is swirling.. so good night:)