#ooty #wayanad #nothingSeemsReal #SelfCaptured

Sparkling water in Thusharagiri falls

Hollow tree- Thusharagiri Falls

Hair pin bent view- thamarasseri Ghats

Lakkidi village- wayanad

pookod aquariun- wayanad

pookod lake- boating

lakkidi village - wayanad

Tea plantation greenery- pandalur wayanad road

ooty-suicide point

city view- Doddabetta peak

ooty- lake

Crown shy-DECIDUOUS

#My #hideout#love #queen of hills# nilgiris #from my roof top

Knowledge is wealth :D:D:D

What have I been doing for the past 25 years? 22 years of my  life have been spend at educating myself. But what sort of knowledge have I acquired? Reflecting about my entire day, ghash how I wish my syllabus also covered topics like how to sew my dress, how to grow my food, then may be little bit of cooking, little bit of self grooming, little bit of self defense and little bit of first aid. Than how sulphuric acid reacts with nitric acid. or when battle of plassey was fought.

 All you want to become is  knowledgeable. Because that is what is expected out of you. And somebody told me “byhearting all that crap  from NCERT text books will give you that  feel”. How wrong I was..Later now  all I feel is that the more submissive you are, the more marks you score. 

Will You marry me:P

I am in a very very funny phase of my life right now..Even though you have the  least idea regarding whom you are gonna get married to, you pray that it happens..Because you are tired of the "not yet married tag" and because everybody of your age are getting married.
But honestly I don't know if this is the kind of relationship what I want. I want to be loved for the person I am. I want someone who will respect me and help each other grow. I dont want to be sold out for 150 sovereigns, 25 lakh rupees and fortuner car. Nor do I want to purchase a guy for that amount. I want somebody who will love me for whatever I am..Who becomes my friend for ever. Who does'nt blame me when our life boat starts to sink.. Who can tolerate my flaws..As they say, marry someone who falls in love with you for things deep inside..Not just the way you comb your hair or the outfit you wear.. You know that expectation hurts..But every night before I close my eyes to peaceful sleep, I make a prayer to thy lord..I plead for a spouse who will enrich my life with more love, peace and happiness.  I pray for strength to deal with life as it comes.. I have heard falling in love is easy..But remaining in a relationship is tough.. And I Know that nobody can complete you by loving the way you want to be loved. And I know that for any marriage to work, you gotta appreciate the similarities and accept the differences and patiently get accustomed to the other halfs' languge of love.

 So let peace prevail in the union. May good things happen..

phenomenal women

She created twinkles in my eyes.

How her little finger held the pencil.  How her curious eyes looked into mine. The small coconut tree stuck out of her head. Her quietness ..Her obedience.  She was my brightest star.

Growing up is a very difficult thing.. Especially when people around you demand PERFECTION, but you have nobody to look up to for an example..Everywhere you see plagiarised versions of pretentious self. She could'nt disguise her original self.. They kept complaining about her ways..

But how on earth could’nt they understand that it was her way of being special. How her imperfect hairdo & her careless clothing would turn her into a phenomenal woman someday.

Is it too much to ask?

If people asked me, what I wanted out of life..I would tell them..I need a very very loving family to love me in all possible ways..I want to be loved honestly..for all that stupid thing I am..
I want a stable job. I want all negative things away from me..

I want to be debt free..I want all the people I love healthy and happy..
I want to be understood and treated with more kindness..
I want to feel human.

And that hopefully will make all the sense!!

So in the mean while.. This confused bundle of 20 something is muddling with the world religions!!.

All these years I have undoubtedly believed in the existence of one single almighty GOD.But these days, when I try to question few of its written precepts I find it unanswerable. May be its beyond what I perceive..

Nevertheless religion has become a habitual part of my life. Be it the 5 times prayer or my Hijab. Despite my reasoning side protesting with logical argument, there is another segment in my head which vehemently draws me into the direction of  unquestioning belief. 

But one thing is certain. This faith comforts me in times of fear and grief. Its where I hide when I feel like running away from everything.. Don't know if it’s the magical hands working behind or is it just the trust I indirectly put in myself by holding on to this faith.. but Thanks to my family for instilling this belief in me..It is a permanent solace when compared with the temporariness of people..

Religion has given me some social security and feeling of oneness, no matter where I am. And I no longer hold any issues with respect to modest dressing and head cover.. But putting aside the rituals, ain't all the religions of the world singing the same songs of love, peace and joy?

But sometimes I wonder who invented these laws of gender inequality and biased freedom ..The GOD, according to me is definitely most justful..and therefore will definitely not promote feminism or sexism. So demanding subservience because of being a girl is surely not  in GODs agenda. And so is the vice versa. To all those who have promises to keep, persistence is the key. Keep working and do all that you can to reach your dream.. Never succumb to anybody who pulls you down in the name of religion and gender. A REAL COMPANION HELPS YOU GROW.. 

Therefore enlighten my gals, He has created you for reasons that matter. plus with some special blessings of  keeping together a tightly knit family. The right to being treated with respect  is mutual to both the genders.

Truth or false, it feels good to believe that there is a super force who considers all tom, dick and harry to be equal.. No matter if we are black, white, red or brown, rich or poor, semitic or anti semitic, intelligent or stupid we are gonna be loved thoroughly by the supreme Power..And to believe that He is busy drawing the masterpiece written for each one of us, which by the end will merge different pieces of the jigsaw puzzle into one beautiful picture..
And that hopefully will make all the sense!!

On the teaching spree!!




mmm long time .. anyways am back:) its been 8 months into my new job:) feeling blessed.. Thank you dad:) If it was not for you, I don't know if I would have ever  done my masters or  got into a noble profession like this.

By the way, my new job entitles me to teach 'CS engineers'.  In other words I have started learning some teeny tiny 'engineering'.  My entire family is flabbergasted at the very thought of me educating,
well! I myself wonder all the more:)

 Its the best job one can have considering the holidays, the remuneration, the free time, and my friendly room mate.. lovin it (not the Mc donalds tagline)..

So  much to my chagrin., Its groom hunting phase for my family.. To add to my woes, I keep counting about the number of things, I will have to give up after the so called 'big day'.. Like this liberty to wake up in the middle of night and do what u please- may be silly blogging,  reading story books, or preparing for the next days class or washing my pent up clothes or To sit like an idiot before the TV and computer . To cook whatever I like and to sleep how much ever time I want.. To dress like a 'crack pot'.. Above all to live at somebody else's home! OMG Marriage seriously seems creepy!!


 On the other hand, there are also times when I  feel so awkward, coz all my friends are getting married.. yep I agree, there is also the need for some soul company- which I doubt if it ever will be met, desire to be a mommy and the like..

But then again I want to adopt a baby girl,. Achieve something worth mentioning in my life..not that marriage is a barrier to all these.. but am afraid, what if it turns out to be the scary kind..

hmm my muddle head of confusions is swirling.. so good night:)
 

Why did he write to her,
“I can’t live without you”?
And why did she write to him,
“I can’t live without you”?
For he went west, she went east,
And they both lived.

-Carl Sandberg

The unpredictable psyche

some angel in disguise..

Sometimes the wonder eyed traveller

in love with the moon traversing by

Sometimes a maniac

an Anxious egotist brain wreck

Sometimes an active little stuart

and a happy-go-lucky fellow

Sometimes a Green Eyed Monster,

a sad baboon or a pity piet

Sometimes the generous ,

the all take-it easy truthful monk

Sometimes a lazy demon,

a full throttle liar stupid silly..

Sometimes confused

Sometimes clear

All together, I know not..

jus wondering, what may be thee?

RANDOMZZZ...

YAHOOOO!!!

SHE

HAPPINESS IN YOU:)

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COLOURFUL!!

RELEASE AND RELIEVE

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